The Believers Never Die Tour Part Duex 4/21/09 Pompano Beach

From 6:30 to 12:00 or so
Bill: Hey Monday, Cobra Starship, Metro Station, All Time Low, Fall Out Boy (in that order) and 50 Cent on select dates (but not on mine)
Recommendations: if your open to pop look up Hey Monday's debut, Hold On Tight (released on Decaydance records). If your a good old pop-punker look into All Time low. video

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I sat in the car, and took off my headphones. We had just arrived, and I was listening to Hey Monday on the hour or so drive. I thought "hey! someone was blasting the same song I was listening to on my headphones!". As I bobbed along to 'Obvious' I noticed it wasn't a car that was blasting it, it was the Pompano Amphitheater, Hey Monday was on! Damn, getting lost made us 20 minutes late! As I hurried my sister, Choly, and my brother, Andrew, to the seats I noticed... they sound amazing. The only thing I have negative to say about Hey Monday is the fact that they didn't play longer. Lead vocalist, Cassadee Pope sounded just like she does on record, but better. They kept a good groove. My respect meter, especially for Cassadee, raised a few notches for putting on such a performance. Hey Monday is definitely one of those bands people are just naturally optimistic about, but they are proving themselves a serious band. I got as close as I could, and watched the rest of their set. The songs they played while I was there in order...
Obvious
Run, Don't Walk
How You Love Me Now
Homecoming
They ended their act with a bang, and I went to the little ladies room. I emerged from the bathroom and picked out the T-shirt my brother promised me because it wasn't enough to just buy me and my sister's tickets (and get her buzzed up like he promise) he sealed the deal with a trip to the merch booth.
Next up was Cobra Starship. I have to tip my hat to Cobra Starship, because they really rocked it. I'm not familiar with their music as much as I wished to be, but hate it or love it, you had to dance. They made it hot, and that's saying something, sense I live in Florida. I know what hot it, and they made it hot. Former Midtown bassist/lead vocalist Gabe Saporta, who formatted Cobra talked to us in a very personal way, even speaking a little Spanish. He told us to follow our dreams, and other ideologies. Owww, its going to be fun being on that stage one day. "hi mom!"
third to the plate was Metro Station. Another band that I was very optimistic about, but for good reason. Their record has a reoccurring theme of women age, and sexual underage behavior. They did not disappoint in that field. Popularized mainly by their co-frontman Trace Cyrus, older brother of Hannah Montana star Miley Cyrus, and Mason Musso, older brother of Mitchel Musso from Hannah Montana fame as well, I can kinda imagine the band formatting on the set of the show. Trace: hey do you like sexy, sexy ladies? Mason: hell yea! your creepy... I like it ;). Now look, I'm not one of those people who hate on bands because its popular to, or because they're the odd band on the tour. I came in there an gave them a fare shot, but it seemed like they where best for giving us a laugh. Through the whole set I kept a tally of how many things creeped me out about them. I counted 14. One of witch was the amount of times Trace said 'sexy'. "sexy, sexy, sexy, ladies!".... metro, metro, metro, station? "Florida, Florida, Florida, Florida!".... O.o please stop. But I digress, besides the creepiness that this band alluded, this band got me to dance... a little. ONLY A LITTLE! if it wasn't for the creepy question "how many girls are seventeen here?" I would have actually jumped a bit during Seventeen Forever. Everyone did an awkward twisting movement during "Shake It" the song I am most familiar with. It was the kind of maneuver you would find at a 7 year old's birthday party. We had a couple laughs, and waited for All Time Low.
I was very excited for All Time Low. So when they came on I was definitely on top of my chair. They blew everyone's teeth in, and something funny happened. During Dear Maria, Count Me In, the last song of their set, I accidentally elbowed my brother's head below. I hugged his head from atop the chair, and I think singer Alex Gaskarth chuckled at me. It would make sense because 1: I was the only albino at the show, let alone light haired girl, and 2: I was the only albino (or anyone for that matter) standing on my chair. Their act was chockfull of fresh fun.
By this point, I was ready.... I mean, I was ready for Fall Out Boy. We all where. I hurried to the bathroom, and sprinted back to my seat to jiggle with excitement. The lights shut off, and screams spread across the audience as everyone hurried to their feet. I jumped on top of my chair and anticipated it... hold on.... its coming....
"I'm coming apart at the seams..."
AHHHH!!!
"pitching myself for leads in other people dreams"
*feels heart fill*
"buzz, buzz, buzz..."
DOC! THERE'S A HOLE WHERE SOMETHING WAS!
Oh man, I went ape shit. This was the set...
Disloyal Order of Water Buffaloes
Thriller
A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me"
Sugar, We're Going Down
This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race
I Don't Care
Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On A Bad Bet
I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy and All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me
Grand Theft Autumn
What A Catch, Donnie
(Coffee's For Closers)
The Patron Saint Of Liars And Fakes
She's My Winona
Beat It
America's Suitehearts
Thnks Fr Th Mmrs
Tiffany Blews
Dance, Dance
Saturday
Some of the time in between was spent showing a fake movie they made, that you can watcha bit of here, along with some footage of Mr Baby Bronxy paints (look at those cheeks! om nom nom nom!). They had costumes on (witch you can see in the video update I linked you to) to make some sort of statement. They where all in monkey suites, and Patrick had white hair. Hey! that's my job! I personally was not able to see the video, but my brother described it to me. It gave me some time to rest my legs from standing on top of that damn chair. Its as if it wasn't made for teenage Banshees. I had many cathartic moments during their set, and danced my face off. I think it pissed a lot of people off that the band took so much time making this 'statement' about the government, and human issues, and I was to at first. But Pete explained why they felt it was their responsibility to, and I could understand. It tied into he theme of their act on this tour. And I think they pulled it off without looking like COMPLETE snobby ass-wipes. Other than the fanservice shots of Pete without his shirt, it was saying something. I don't wont to give away to much, but yes, it was worth the money. Patrick actually talked guys! (wah!). Before She's My Winona, Pete handed it over to Patrick to be "teacher for a day". He taught us the vocal melodies between "the thunder!"s.
For those who don't know, the show was moved to Pompano from Boca because the city of Boca Raton felt "There have been known disturbances associated with one of the bands, “Fall Out Boy”. We anticipate the concert will generate security challenges” (read the original blog here). So one of the conditions of playing in Pompano Beach Amphitheater was that the bands had to keep it clean. All the bands joked, and tested the limits. All Time Low gave us a moment to scream out our pent up obscurities in one big "mega swear". The way Fall Out Boy rebelled, was playing a game of fill in the blank. Pete gave us a word and we guessed what was after. "mother _____, son of a ______, Dance, _____". And we all went... ohhhhh I get it, and head-banged on.
All together, this was an awesome night. and traffic wasn't that bad neither!
I want to thank my bro, he actually said that he really loved watching me and thinking "I made that" (in reference to my happiness... ya nasties). Choly, thank you too, cause you drove all that way, and did not say a peep about it... well not at first anyways. Apparently I was radiating happy all the way to my bed, where I rested my sore muscles.
Of course, I want to also thank the bands. Hey Monday, Cobra Starship, Metro Station, All Time Low, and Fall Out Boy for taking all these great acts on the road, and creating, what I think, is the best bill this spring if you want to boogie your nuggets off.




till next time,
from the smallish wave
lilwave //(^.\\\

....P.S, my sister kept saying Fall Out Boys the whole way there O.o IT'S NOT PLURAL! GAH! Dx

Does Vegetarianism Make You 'Nicer'?

To help answer this burning question I brought in a good vegan friend of mine, a student of psychology at Rutgers University in New Jersey, and an avid boardie on Skeleton Crew.
Ever sense Vegetarianism has been a movement there have been statements that are hard to prove. One of these being that meat eating can be linked to beast like behavior and violent acts. In a world were fear rain, past vegetarians have pointed to meat eating for making people warlike and vicious. In the Victorian days, British vegetarians warned their fellow countrymen that meat could spark animal passions, and lewd appetites. The general idea seems to be that one violent act leads to another, and if someone is able to desensitize themselves to the suffering of an innocent creature, what wont they do?
“While it is actually a fact that there is a strong correlation between cruelty to animals and cruelty to humans, eating meat is a gray area.”
Amanda adds
“Because people who eat meat are so far removed from the process that put the food on their plate, chances are that most of them are not naturally cruel. This is why animal rights organizations try so hard to show people what the process looks like. The assumption is that human nature is such that once aware of an injustice they are causing, most humans have too developed a moral sense to ignore it.”
Maybe meat makes you more likely to cause havoc, for one belief is that when animals die in fear, we suffer.
“I wanted to mention. I wish I could attribute this belief properly, but the source (either a tribe or religion) eludes me. Anyway, it stated that when you kill an animal in terror and eat it, you are eating the animal's terror. Scientifically, it does make sense. When you're afraid, hormones like adrenaline start pumping. If an animal dies while producing those hormones, might they remain in its body? If so, might they be transferred to another animal who ate it? Anyway, my idea is that if, say, adrenaline, could transfer to a human being, it seems at least somewhat possible that it would create some kind of secondary fight-or-flight response, which would enable enhanced aggression and such. Nearly all animals killed for food today die in terror and not at all peacefully, so this is another possibility.”
As one vegetarian put it, "I eat everything that nature voluntarily gives; fruits, vegetables, and the products of plants. But I ask you to spare me what animals are forced to surrender." Many young people who switch to a vegetarian diet proclaim that they feel "gentler." They feel a sort of inner peace rise in them. Besides, who could be gentler than Mahatma Gandhi, the great Indian teacher of nonviolence and peace who was a fervent vegetarian and whose views on animals for food was an intricate part of his nonviolent philosophy. But Adolf Hitler, the man responsible for one of the biggest wars in history and the murders of millions in an attempt to "purify" the world, was also a vegetarian. Actually, that quote about nature's voluntary gifts was his.
“First of all, I've gotta bust the Hitler argument because it's simply ridiculous. It's just another of those lame excuses meat-eaters use to defend their crude way of life: "Well, if vegetarians are so great, then why was Hitler one?". “
Amanda writes in refute to the Adolf Hitler argument.
“Technically, Hitler was not actually a vegetarian because he did eat meat sometimes. Also, no one really knows why he was mostly a vegetarian. Some people say he loved animals, but the general consensus is that he did it for health (and empowerment) reasons. If that is true, then it would be illogical to compare him with modern vegetarians who do it out of respect for animals. At any rate, you can never base an assumption about an entire group of people on such a pathological person as Hitler. He had mad issues, and that's that. I'd put money on the fact that they had nothing to do with his diet, meat or not.”
Its true that Hitler occasionally ate meat during the 1930s, and back then people were vegetarian more for health reasons than animal advocacy.
There are many kind gentle people who do eat meat. A group that comes to mind is the Eskimo’s. Known for their hospital, and kind ways, Eskimos eat mostly (if not solely) meat and fish.
“I hate to burst the bubble, but the probability is that the correlation of vegetarians and kindness (which I have found to be true for the most part) is based on kind people becoming vegetarians, not on vegetarians becoming kind. See the difference? It's very unlikely that if you put a serial killer or abusive person on a vegetarian diet, they would suddenly become a better person. It's equally unlikely that if you took a naturally caring person off their current vegan diet, they would become selfish and rude. In our society, because vegetarians make up such a small percentage of people, it is generally only the most compassionate people who care enough to withstand social pressures and go out of their way to find plants to eat. (Now that more people are realizing the health benefits of the diet, I am sure the correlation is actually weakening.) Thus, very nice people are the ones who tend to become vegetarian, so it may often seem that being vegetarian causes people to be nice, but this is unlikely to be a cause-effect relationship because there are evil vegetarians and extremely nice omnivores.”
It is impossible to prove that eating meat makes you violent, but what about a vegetarian diet making people nicer? True, many vegetarians are peace loving individuals who have dedicated their lives to leading a responsible and harmless existence. Many hope that they are setting an example for the new age of sanity and unity, and that we should live in harmony with nature and animals. But could it be that giving up animal flesh awakens some sort of ‘inner’ peace or satisfaction?
“Putting that aside, I was told that many people claim to feel gentler after becoming vegetarian. I believe that those people truly are gentler. My guess would be that very compassionate people feel a sense of dissonance between their beliefs and actions when they eat meat. After giving it up and releasing that dissonance, it would make sense for someone to become less irritable and more willing to love others. Sometimes just feeling like a better person can make you a better person, too. Another aspect is that vegetarians tend to seek out other vegetarians, who would likely be just as compassionate. Being around others who share your beliefs strongly reinforces them. When you eat vegan meals with a friend and discuss animals, your compassion for animals and other people can become stronger. You will feel even more of a pull to take action, and when you take that action, your beliefs will, again, be reinforced. This is a well known psychological phenomenon, so I believe it is probably at work here.”
People have raised testimonies of vegetarianism being a more peaceful state of mind for centuries. Another vegan friend named Derwenna explains…
“I noticed feeling more peaceful when I became vegan. I think it's to do with doing less harm, knowing I didn't make any animals be killed so that I could eat and knowing it's less damaging to the environment. That probably sounds like a 'bunch of tree-huggin' hippy crap' but I definitely noticed a change.
I do sometimes get a bit overwhelmed when I realize I'm in the minority and I want the rest of the world to change more than I feel I can make it (usually when I see other people eat meat or talk about eating it) but I get over it and concentrate on what I am doing to make a difference.”
I can say from personal experience that I feel much happier with myself, and started striving to be more peaceful only after going vegetarian. Many of us are influenced by other people we idolize, and it links us to other ideas. The punk scene was a big influence on my decision, and many vegetarians that you may meet are ALSO pro peace. Vegetarianism really became a movement when tie-dye and Burning Man did, meaning the 1970s, when grass-loving carrot eaters roamed free. Since then, the number of vegetarians increased, as did meat consumption, but most of all an understanding of the meatless. Could people just be influenced by what "hippies" stood for?
Amanda wraps up
“To conclude, vegetarianism probably does not make you nicer per se. It's just that nice people are more likely to be vegetarians, and the association with the movement might reinforce a gentle disposition. However, we can't rule out the psychological effects of giving up something so terrible, nor the possibility of obscure biological influences. Ultimately, this is another unsolved issue and we all must draw our own conclusion.”
To hear more on Amanda’s thoughts on vegetarianism, go here

Skeleton Crew's Guide To Proper Etiquette at a Show

In the world of music culture, show, gigs, or concerts are a great way to let go. A place to let it all drop, and let the music take you. Bands, and groups (contrary to popular belief) enjoy playing shows, and like to see the crowd having fun and getting along. But with the punk rock mentality how well can this hold up? should there be guidelines for consideration and control while attending a sieving crowd of drug induced teenagers? Skeleton Crew thinks so. So the great baordies on Skeleton Crew's Online Forum have banned together to make...
A Guide To Proper Etiquette at a Show
(something I think every first time show going should read.)

Pit Etiquette


Warning! The pit is the closest most inner layer in front of the stage, were you will be standing jammed in with many other people. Sweaty men will take off their shirt, people will fart, and there is no guarantee on where you will be watching the show from. Depending on the group or artist that is playing, a mosh pit CAN start, and it CAN get dangerous. Enter at your own risk.

1: where you are is determined by when you came… and if you protect your spot well. Do not push your way to the front; this is dangerous, and unfair to the people who were there first. DO NOT target weaker or skinnier people in an attempt to get to the front. That’s just plain not nice.

2: keep your hands to yourself. Apart from the inevitable brushes from being so cramped together in the mosh, never deliberately grope somebody. This can result in trauma, and a law suit. Ya nasty

3: Look out for yourself, and everyone else. There has been several occasions where people have gotten seriously injured or even died at a show. The band never wants this. Actually it’s a well known fact that artists will even stop shows dead in its tracks to help people who get swallowed by the crowd. Especially when moshing, keep yourself, and the people around you safe. Its all in good fun. Even when your not moshing, watch were your limbs are. You see it as dancing, the person next to you see it as a repeated jab to the ribs.

4: Don’t pull anyone into circle pits, including the band members.

5: in the great words of Ninja, if you join the mosh pit, smash 'em all.

6: Things You Can and Should NOT Throw on Stage
-You SHOULD throw a boa, a plush, stuffed animal
-You should NOT throw your knickers, it’s not just a creepy gesture, they might get sniffed (eww)
- You should NOT throw anything that may hurt the band. Loose change, bottles, ect.



General Etiquette


1: Keep the peace. This is very important, because doing the opposite can ruin your/their/and everyone’s time. Give everyone the benefit of the doubt, and avoid people who are trying to start shit. For the most part don’t concern yourself with other people, let it roll off your back, and have a good time.

2: Watch how much you drink. Its never fun to get stuck next to ‘that’ dude/dudet. Also the sieving crowd induces barfing, and getting barf on you and the people around you is NOT fun.

3: Behavior properly for the music you are listening to.

4: Respect everyone’s different interests in different music genres and music groups.

5: Don’t lie about yourself, and be untruthful in order to seem cool. No you don’t know the band, don’t name drop the people they are on tour with like “oh but he’s my friend though”

6: Don’t use the time during an act to socialize, this is just plain rude.

Things You Can Scream
- song lyrics
- witty remarks that make people laugh
- in-the-moment screams of aggression
- 'woo' when songs end
- calling pit-control over to get someone out
- "Someone is going to land on your head."

Things Your Shouldn't Scream
- "Like oh my god can I have your babies."
- the wrong song lyrics
- plans to flip the barricade while I happen to be the person against it
- plans on how to get in front of me
- “I’m going to land on your head”



Proper Clothing


1: Especially if you’re on the floor, keep it comfortable. Your going to walk, and stand the majority of the time, and no one wants to hear you cry over how scuffed your new shoes are. Deodorize, tie back long hair, avoid long jewelry and refrain from bringing bulky bags.

2: No band has a dress code. If they do, don’t follow it either way. Where what you want because you want to wear it. Not because you’re not a real [insert band name here] fan if you aren’t pale as paper.

3: Band T Shirts. A great way to show your support, and wear as a proud sign of who you are there for. On the other side of the spectrum, it can divide people. Please do not judge anyone based on the band T they have on... mingle with everyone, regardless of their T shirt.



Meeting The Band


1 [---this rule does not apply to groupies---] Respect yourself, and the band and keep the conversation appropriate.
Things you should talk about
- Song lyrics
-Certain things that touch you about their music
- how great the show was
-how their day went

things you shouldn’t talk about
-the sex tape / naked pictures
- How you warship the ground they walk on.
- “is this your phone number/email /home address? If not can I have it?”

2: Be understanding. Artists really appreciate it when you treat them like any other human being. Ask them how their day went, where they are going after. They are human, and they will have bad days, so if he/she acts like a bit of a prick, don’t hold it against them. Everyone has off days.

3: Don't get your hopes up. Be more excited for the show, not the chance of meeting the band. Because on unfortunate occasion, they won’t respond the way you expect, or want. No matter what you talk about.



Rules To Having a Good Time


1: Queue. It’s a great way to show support, and meet new people. Collect numbers, trade myspaces. Plus it insures a better spot.

2: Come for the supporting acts. Before you get to the show, it’s a good idea to check them out, and really give them a fare listen. Its a win win situation for you because if you end up liking them, your going to have an even better time at the show. If you don't, you’ll be able to say “on record they’re kinda iffy for me, but I saw them live and they kicked everyone's teeth in”. Open your eyes to new acts, if the band you like brought them out on the road than maybe they’re worth a listen. Besides, why pay the ticket price if you’re not getting the full show?

3: If you’re coming, go all out. Listen, you have a few hours of musical explosions to endure, let the music move you and just let loose. In the end, no one really cares, as long as your having fun.

So you studied this thing up and down, yes? You’re going to follow it to the tee, and you can’t wait to go! One last thing though: Don’t get bent out of shape because someone else didn’t. A show brings about all sorts of different people. Fangirls, groupies, Down-Town guys, young, old, the important thing is to be tolerant. You don’t need to call anyone out, you don’t need to prove yourself as a bigger fan, and you definitely don’t need to put anyone else down.
I remember hearing this story of a girl who was meeting Gerard Way, and low and behold their was a squealing 14 year old girl next to her. She got so annoyed, that she felt the need to go and punch this poor girl in the mouth. It was this girls first show ever, and she was so amped cause Gerard is someone who she idolized. She was younger than the crazy puncher, and really didn’t even see it coming. Two years later she was very embarrassed at how she acted, but more so felt wronged and even more embarrassed that she got punched in front of friends and family for being overly excited. This sort of thing isn’t fare, and in no way justified, cause no, crazy puncher lady didn’t need to “shut the fooking fangirl up”.
Thank you Skeleton Crew, this guide, I think, will change the world inside clubs, and concert halls forever.

QC: Would you like to add to the list?

fundraising: 13$ - I found a way to meet my goal ;) Aids Walk New York is coming up in a few months!

With new found wisdom, and love for the crew from the smallish wave
lilwave //(^.\\\

Do I Have A Problem? Or Does The World Have A Problem?

“Turn off the lights, and turn off the shyness”
ohh Fall Out Boy with your itchy swift lyrics, your noise has caught my ear.
“Cause all of our moves make up for the silence”
How provocative.
I’m listening to "Of All The Gin Joints In All The World" on the mass hunt for a banner. Lake Effect Kids looks doll, and I’m irritated. You’d think that someone would jump at such an easy project… three words, and three to two colors, that’s it. This is brain surgery, and everyone needs some attention. I came home not too long ago, it looked like no one was home. Of course I could have rang the doorbell to check, but I’m unbearably inpatient, and my family is unbearably slow. So I ventured to the back. My dogs are barking up a storm, and Dannie, the oldest, jumped up on me and left a giant mud paw print on my shirt. If this wasn’t shitty conformist uniform, I would be close to slightly upset but looking into those big brown eyes could anyone get angry? Not me. Besides its not his fault. He’s muddy cause the neighbors are doing …something with their hose that’s making water overflow are garden. Geez, that particular couple has been on our case for years, now this? Yea us future hamburger flippers are terrible with our loud music, and our excitable dogs. But you? You elderly couple with your hostility, smelliness, and mud-making. You with the granddaughter that uses this weak, not so coincidental link as fuel to drive herself up to me in school and say hi. Gah, the nerve of that girl. “omg! You live behind my grandparents!” I’m sorry, have you not mentioned this before? I need to start avoiding the bathroom between 5th and 6th period. Call me anti social, but if your going to keep coming up to me, and we’re going to keep having this same stupid moment, than I don’t really want to talk to you anymore. Actually, I’d think that you should STOP coming up to me, so that we can STOP having this awkward silence. I don’t even know this poor girls name. I must sound bitchy, but this is how I feel, hear me out.
God is this the thing prohibiting me from socializing? My impatience? Or is this a matter of my shyness? What I’ve noticed is when I “turn off the shyness” its still irritating to talk to people. Because really, truly, and honestly I do not care how your day went, and no I am not doing anything after school, are you offering? Because I’m not taking. My experience is social situations are exhausting. I feel fake trying to be everyone who is so kind as to give me their worthless time and attention’s friend. I have had this problem for a while, and I told this to someone. This someone promptly told their girlfriend to say hi to me at school every chance they get. Damn these inconvenient correlations! I need to transfer schools. My sister says just to suck it up and be her friend, because Psycho (My friend of 5 years) can’t be my only friend for the rest of my high school experience. Well this is pretty sad, I’m being recommended to take whatever is given to me. But wait… don’t they say if you have one good friend you’re doing alright? That phrase doesn’t apply to me when I’m found alone another Friday night, how I like it. Beggars can’t be choosers I guess… but I’m not a beggar! Well… I do feel lonely on the odd occasion (blog that no one visits, hello) but I don’t feel that I should settle with just anyone that I can share a blank connection and a Oh My God How Can I Get Away From This Person Moment with. Tell me I’m not the only one who feels like this!? Okay guys, I really need your help… do I have a problem? Or does the world have a problem? I’ll give in to either or answer, but I need closer. Help me out?

P.S. I’m not a mean person in real life, and the way I feel is to certain persons fault. If you want to say hi to me (especially if you read this – wow!) than please do. I’m obliged, and a little flattered to respond. Especially other the internet were I'm not forced to respond when you send it.

Found raising = 0$ out of 50$... how am I going to do this?

QC: 1: Do I have a problem? Or does the world have a problem? 2: Any advise on how I should deal with situations like these?


with frustration and hope, from the smallish wave
lilwave //(^.\\\

The Realization of A Lifetime: What is Cool?

I'm pretty sure everyone hates me cause I'm 16 (more like 15, but when your my age your obliged to round up) and an awkward 5'8. But I don't think that matches up to all the uncool things I do. Like listen to bands that wear eye liner, and wear one glove, even when its a chilly 90 degrees in the sun shine state.Weirdly enough, in this culture, you can be so normal but so unbearable to others.
Let me explain
I've always thought of myself as different, and that's comforted me. All those awkward corks, that makes you. Even your depressions, and your disabilities, its made you into someone. Whoever 'you' are, you are. But were does the tag cool come in? When society gets a hold of you. Weather you think of 'cool' as a positive thing, or a negative thing, you are at risk of being it, weather you want to or not. But why would anyone NOT want to be suave, accepted, and interesting? were did 'cool', a word according to the urban dictionary, meaning a 'chill' or 'good' person, become bad?
There's this none conformity bug that seems to get to most teenagers. This need to be different. But yet everyone is not as different as they think if they are trying not to conform, instead of mistakenly slipping into the uncool category, because they think it is cool to be uncool. For example, a cool person to me, would be someone like... me. Because I think, if you get past my obvious narcissism for picking myself as the coolest person I can think of, I'm pretty cool. A cool person would listen to the music I love, and has their own mind. Because those are my two big qualities that I look for in a person; a love for art and proof that they think about things that matter, and form there own opinions, rather than just inheriting their parents beliefs and caring them stubbornly, instead of walking with an open mind. But a cool person to another person could be a person that likes wrestling, or some other blood sport. My point is... the only person that makes you cool or uncool are the people around you, and how they perceive you. Because you really have nothing to do with how people perceive you, its just if you fit up to their personal standards of cool.
There is no such thing as a generally cool person.... because cool is in the eye of the beholder. We should just enbraise who WE ARE. Not worry about this cool/none cool social machine.
Today I woke up at 9:00PM, like most sleep deprived teens do. Ate a Subway (eat fresh) sandwich for dinner (go veggie delight!). Joined the human raise the only way I enjoy, and went on the internet. Afterward, went upstairs and jammed to some Blink 182. My alarm interrupted me promptly at 5:30. I straightened my now greasy from sweat hair, and got on the bus, were I proceeded to listen to more music. Somewhere in between meeting up with my phycodic friend of 5 years for lunch at a remote stair case away from the 'normal people', and leaving my 6th period band class I realized.... I'm fucking normal. And there's nothing wrong with that.

QC: who's a cool person to you?


with humbled thoughts and much gratitude from the smallish wave
lilwave //(^.\\\

The Skinless To Join The Aids Walk! HUZZAH! Wavey's Challenge: raise 50$.... can she do it?

The Aids Walk New York, is an annual fund raising walkathon that benefits Gay Men's Health Crisis and over 50 other AIDS service organizations. It's now the largest walkathon in the world, and the largest AIDS fundraiser in the world. In 2008 alone, 45,000 participants, many of whom were members of 2,450 corporate and community teams, raised a record sum of over $7 million. One of these 2,450 groups was our very own Skeleton Crew, who raised over $3,500. This year I expect no different, if not better.
How do I foresee this? well for starters we're starting a cool 4 months earlier than last year. And for seconder's I wasn't a part of S//C last year. AND for thirders The AIDs Walk's stats have a rising nature, from 5,000,000 to 6,000,000's to 7,000,000 sense its start in 1986 thanks to participants.
Living 10,348,807,583,478,572 miles away from center of the universe, the Big Apple, is such a drag but its not an impediment on my support. I'll be working hard in my neck of the woods, raising money to send to my favorite set of walkers and the 33.2 million people now living with HIV or AIDS.

QC - 1: What are you doing to help if anything?
2:Have you ever been tested?
3: Any idea's on how I can raise money?

P.S 0$ out of 50$.... gotta start somewhere *shrugs* :)

with love and peace from the smallish wave
lilwave //(^.\\\